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  • Love is a verb: Is More Than Just Words

    Love is a verb: Is More Than Just Words

    Have you listened to the song “Love is a verb” by John Mayer?

    He said;

    Love is a verb
    It ain’t a thing
    It’s not something you own
    It’s not something you scream

    When you show me love
    I don’t need your words
    Yeah love ain’t a thing
    Love is a verb
    Love ain’t a thing
    Love is a verb

    Love ain’t a crutch
    It ain’t an excuse
    No you can’t get through love
    On just a pile of I-O-Us

    Love ain’t a drug
    Despite what you’ve heard
    Yeah love ain’t a thing
    Love is a verb
    Love ain’t a thing
    Love is a verb

    So you gotta show, show, show me
    Show, show, show me
    Show, show, show me
    That love is a verb

    That’s why children trust and appreciate their parents after seeing all the sacrifices, kindness, Patience and the permanence on how they’ve been excluding these love on them.

    During our first year of marriage, I often expressed my love and care for my husband through words. However, there were times when my actions didn’t align with what I said.

    This frustrated him because he expected my behavior to always reflect my words. In turn, I would get upset, feeling as though he doubted my love for him. What I didn’t realize at the time was that love isn’t just about words—it’s about consistently showing it through actions.

    It didn’t make sense until I read 1 Corinthians 13 five times. Then I understood that love isn’t reactive, it’s proactive.

    This disconnect created tension between us until I learned that love is best understood when words and actions work together.

    Few days after I got that understanding, I came across a written note about a man who made a powerful proactive choice every day.

    Love is proactive not reactive

    When he comes home from work, he sits in his car in the driveway and pushes his pause button. He literally put his life in pause to get perspective.

    He thinks about the members of his family and what they are doing inside the walls of his house He considers what kind of environment and feeling he wants to help create when he goes inside.

    He says to himself, My family is the most enjoyable, the most pleasant, the most important part of my life. I’m going to into my home and communicate my love for them.

    When he walks through the door, instead of finding fault and becoming critical or simply going off by himself to relax and take care of his own needs he will dramatically shout I’m home! Please try to restrain yourself from hugging and kissing me.

    Then he will go around the house and interact in positive ways with every family members. Kissing his wife, rolling around on the floor with the kids or doing whatever it takes to create pleasantness and happiness. Whether it’s taking out the garbage or helping with a project or just listening.

    In doing these things, he rises above his fatigue, his challenges or setbacks at work, his tendencies to find fault or disappointed in what he may find at home.

    Think about the proactive choice this man is making and the impact it has on his family. Think about the relationship he is building and how it will impact every dimension of family life for years perhaps for generations to come.

    This isn’t applied to marriages or families alone. It can go well with friends and roommates.

    Any successful relationship, marriage and family takes work. It’s not a matter of accident, it’s a matter of achievement.

    It takes effort and sacrifice. It takes knowing that as long as you live – Love is a verb.

  • Stick to the script – your written goals

    Stick to the script – your written goals

    “Write it down, stick to the script, and let your goals come to life.”

    The good news is that this isn’t about a selfish agenda but fulfilling God’s priority—Heaven’s plan for your life.

    Many wander aimlessly, not because they don’t love God, but because their lives lack a script.

    Before Jesus came, His purpose was written—when He’d arrive, what He’d do, and when He’d leave. The same applies to you and me

    Your script is in heaven, consult the writer.

    Have you set your goals and created a plan to their attainment? if you haven’t then this is how you can go about it.

    Discover God’s purpose for your life

    The journey to discovering life’s purpose start with having an understanding who created life first.

    When you get to know the one who gave you life, then you get to understand why you are alive.

    This is not something that happens within a day or even a month, its a process.

    After you have establish a relationship with God, ask him to reveal both your fixed and progressive purpose as to why you are here on earth.

    This is very crucial and essential because, you wouldn’t want to live a wasted life.

    Another thing to look out for is your passion, gifts and strengths. One thing that is sure and will never change is the call into the Great commission Matthew 28:19.

    To make disciples of all nations. but the channels to make these disciples differ, we have people passionate for music, movies, the market places, children ministries, youth ministries etc.

    where ever your passion place you in, the aim should be to help others know and be like Christ and debunk the devils troll.

    Writ it down

    For a builder, he draft out the blue print before constructing the building. The writer writes the script before performing the play, the pilot create a flight plan before taking off the airplane. Imagine the opposite, the journey will definitely end in shambles.

    You know, when you jot things down they find a spot in your mind to stick around at least for a while.

    This is the reason why you should write the vision it down. Aside that, have you ever heard people say “Repetition is Retention”.

    Yes, repeatedly reading it helps it stick with you and ignites a drive to get it done.

    Even the Bible says, “Write the vision plainly so that whoever reads it may run.” You may not fully grasp its meaning when you first write it, but reading it repeatedly brings clarity and understanding.

    Prayerfully craft goals around Your God given purpose

    In prayer ask God what you must do and when you must do them. Ask for speed and precision. Write down whatever He tells you to do.

    A goal not written is merely a wish. Write down the knowledge, information and skill you will need to achieve your goal.

    Write down who God is sending you to impact and why? Then, trust God for an appointed time for transformation to be seen.

    Build daily routine around the goals

    You can read the word of God, research and pray. Break the work into daily or weekly task. these small actions can now form a routine. for example, weekly meetings or bible studies, outreaches, retreats, prayer meetings, or worship sessions.

    Stick to the plan and review as you implement

    Your written goals are the map you have sketched down that will guide you to your destination. The earth is too big and the roads are many, when you receive and accurate instructions as to where you should go and the path to follow stick to it unless you want to wander round the wilderness like the Israelite.

    Those goals convey the spatial information you must stick to. Things may not go as you wish, stick to your map. there may be a glitch here and there, stick you your map.

    The storm, the rain and the sun will drench you, stick to your goals.

    In other words, stay diligent and committed to your God-given aspirations.

    Don’t forget to evaluate how far you’ve gone, where you need adjustments and where changes need to be made.

    Conclusion

    No president should run a country better than you run your life. Ecclesiastes 9:10 says whatever your hands find to do, do it with all your might, for in the real of the dead, where you are going there is neither working nor planning nor knowledge nor wisdom.

    A year from now you may wish you had started today because you would have achieved the goals you’d set today.

  • Trauma – when the memory still hurts (Part 2)

    Trauma – when the memory still hurts (Part 2)

    Like the Samaritan woman at the well, who, after experiencing emotional trauma I believe, sleeping and seeking validation from various men, finally met the one man who cared more about healing her spirit than claiming her body.

    John 4:7-26,28

    [7]A woman of Samaria came to draw water. Jesus said to her, “Give Me a drink.”

    [8]For His disciples had gone away into the city to buy food.

    [9]Then the woman of Samaria said to Him, “How is it that You, being a Jew, ask a drink from me, a Samaritan woman?” For Jews have no dealings with Samaritans.

    [10]Jesus answered and said to her, “If you knew the gift of God, and who it is who says to you, ‘Give Me a drink,’ you would have asked Him, and He would have given you living water.”

    [11]The woman said to Him, “Sir, You have nothing to draw with, and the well is deep. Where then do You get that living water?

    [12]Are You greater than our father Jacob, who gave us the well, and drank from it himself, as well as his sons and his livestock?”

    [13]Jesus answered and said to her, “Whoever drinks of this water will thirst again,

    [14]but whoever drinks of the water that I shall give him will never thirst. But the water that I shall give him will become in him a fountain of water springing up into everlasting life.”

    [15]The woman said to Him, “Sir, give me this water, that I may not thirst, nor come here to draw.”

    [16]Jesus said to her, “Go, call your husband, and come here.”

    [17]The woman answered and said, “I have no husband.” Jesus said to her, “You have well said, ‘I have no husband,’

    [18]for you have had five husbands, and the one whom you now have is not your husband; in that you spoke truly.”

    [19]The woman said to Him, “Sir, I perceive that You are a prophet.

    [20]Our fathers worshiped on this mountain, and you Jews say that in Jerusalem is the place where one ought to worship.”

    [21]Jesus said to her, “Woman, believe Me, the hour is coming when you will neither on this mountain, nor in Jerusalem, worship the Father.

    [22]You worship what you do not know; we know what we worship, for salvation is of the Jews.

    [23]But the hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth; for the Father is seeking such to worship Him.

    [24]God is Spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth.”

    [25]The woman said to Him, “I know that Messiah is coming” (who is called Christ). “When He comes, He will tell us all things.”

    [26]Jesus said to her, “I who speak to you am He. ” The Whitened Harvest

    [28]The woman then left her water pot, went her way into the city, and said to the men,

    [29]“Come, see a Man who told me all things that I ever did. Could this be the Christ?”

    [30]Then they went out of the city and came to Him.

    When she had a conversation with Jesus at the well, she realized something different about this particular man.

    No wonder she left everything she was doing and ran back to the city to invite the other men.

    I guess, she’d say to them.

    “Y’all think highly of yourselves. But come see a man who’s not interested in having me in his bed, but wants me to spend eternity with him in heaven. Come see a man who’s interested in a wholesome life, one dedicated to God irrespective of my past. A real man who knows how to keep a woman.

    I’ve found what I’ve been looking for in six different men”

    So, an entire city followed that woman.

    Why?

    She went past her experience to embrace newness in Jesus.

    A lady told me how she had to suffer a terrible trauma after she gave birth.

    She was confiding in me as she could no longer hold a secret, a terrible thing she did in the past.

    She had an affair with a married man..

    If it were just anyone, it would hurt less. But this man happens to mentor she and her husband.

    One day, he asked her to book a hotel in a neighboring state. She needed to wait for his arrival  before she leaves the place. But when he came, he pleaded that she spends the night as it was already too late to leave.

    So out of trust, she stayed back.

    One thing led to the other, he forced himself on her. When she kept pleading, he told her that he loved her and wanted her badly.

    She cried all through the night after the sex.

    He apologized, but the very next morning, he pleaded to have sex with her again, but this time with her consent. He assured her that it was never going to happen again, so she consented to it.

    A week later, he told her that he’d love to be with her over a chat. And that he wants her to be his confidante.

    She agreed.

    They continued having sex. Until one day, she got tired and told him she could no longer continue to live like that.

    Everything was suffering. Her relationship with her man, her spiritual life and even her health. She had series of infections because they were having unprotected sex. Even to the point he made her promise that she’ll never leave him.

    He was everything she wanted in her man, she kept wondering what kind of influence would make her go this far with her mentor.

    She’s been with her man for seven years, and that was the only time she cheated on him. Something she regrets.

    In her words, I’ve made mistakes in the past, but this was the worst mistake and i regret every bit of it. I wonder if I’m ever going to recover from this.”

    The memory hunted her each time she was making love to her husband. Each time she was breastfeeding her baby, she’d remember the way the man sucked her breast and she’ll fling the child. And sometimes, when she’s overwhelmed and feels like the man took advantage of her, she’d get so angry at her husband and the baby.

    This continued to happen until she was forced to share it with me, something she promised she’d never do. It was too shameful for her to talk about it.

    I spoke to her, prayed with her and shared the scriptures with her.

    She testified that praying eased the pain she felt each time she remembered. Knowing that God loves her, and still does changed her perspective about making mistakes and moving on from them.

    She thought she’d never recovered, even though it hurts her, her response to that memory is different now.

    Instead of anger, she becomes grateful to have been able to walk away from such a despicable life.

    Instead of fury, she knows she’s forgiven. Her heavenly father has forgiven and erased that past.

    This is one of the many stories I’ve heard that depicts the true state of a person suffering from the sharp blades of trauma that cuts deep into their being.

    You can totally be free from trauma. You can totally heal from the memory that hurts.

    It may prompt the question, “How?”

    Identify Triggers

    What are those things that quickly triggers you?

    What brings you back to that unpleasant place you hate to relive?

    Confront it with the word of God.

    You may be suffering from a loss. But what does the word say about it? What promises shows that God is able to restore all that you’ve lost?

    Understand that they are triggers because you allow it.

    When the devil shows me pictures of the past mistakes I’ve made, I openly and loudly say “I don’t remember.”

    You know why?

    Because God doesn’t either.

    Hebrews 8:12

    For I will be merciful to their unrighteousness, and their sins and their lawless deeds I will remember no more.”

    It’s my way of shutting him up. It’s my way of shutting down triggers.

    So interested of sulking, and wallowing in shame, I confront it with the understanding of who I have become.

    My worth is not measured by what I’ve done, what I’m doing, what I’ve lost in the past, what I’m going to lose in the future, it is not measured by any material acquisition.

    It is measured by the blood of Jesus, and that’s invaluable.

    When you’ve identified triggers…

    Check your response.

    The anger, the resentment, the fury all disappear.

    Because an understanding has been established.

    The devil moves in the direction of ignorance. So when a man is destitute of knowledge or understanding, it becomes a good habitat for the devil to perpetuate evil.

    I may still have the memory, but I do not allow it to control my emotions. And so because my emotions are governed by the spirit, my response changes.

    2 Corinthians 5:17

    [17]Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.

    As a child of God, you cannot coexist with trauma. It’s an error.

    Confront triggers.

    Declare God’s word over anything that challenges you.

    Understand who you have become after receiving Christ, and allow that awareness change your responses!

    I call you blessed!

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  • Wisdom from Proverbs 31 for Moms

    Wisdom from Proverbs 31 for Moms

    The wisdom imparted by King Lemuel’s mother to her son is one of the most significant pieces of advice for anyone desiring to navigate life with integrity. In Proverbs 31:2-3, she speaks with a clarity born of experience, urging him:

    “Oh my son whom I have dedicated to the Lord, do not spend your time with women—the royal path to destruction.” (TLB)

    This admonition, echoed more in the TEV version, “Don’t spend your time on sex and all your money on women; they have destroyed kings.”

    What are you doing, my son? What are you doing, son of my womb?

    What are you doing, son of my vows?

    Do not give your strength to women, your ways to those who destroy kings.
    It is not for kings, O Lemuel, it is not for kings to drink wine,

    or for rulers to take strong drink,
    lest they drink and forget what has been decreed
    and pervert the rights of all the afflicted. (Proverbs 31:2–5)
         
    Many moms remind their sons to clean their rooms, finish their food, be on time, and avoid wasting things. While these are good instructions to teach, on their own they provide only practical help. Without deeper a foundation of weightier instruction, that will preserve them beyond this life.

    Wisdom handpicked for moms

    The litany of leasers and kings ruined by women is as long as history itself. Kings, presidents, generals, politicians, general overseers, founders of global ministries, anointed men of God, CEO’s and high flying individuals from all walks of life have been victims.

    Great men have been shipwrecked and reduced to pieces of bread by immorality. People once held in high esteem become object of mockeries, and topics of tabloids.

    Sexual sin is no respecter of status, it can entangle whoever and whenever.

    Lemuel’s mother had watched the repeated crash of titans from grace to disgrace and determined that their fate must not befall her son. Perhaps she saw what happened to her own husband, Solomon, whose wisdom was marred by his indulgence in sexual immorality.

    She vowed that her son would not suffer the same fate. From an early age, she made it a priority to instill in him the truth that would guide his life. While Lemuel was still young, sitting at her feet, she hammered these lessons into his heart, preparing him for the challenges that lay ahead.

    Proverbs 31:1-10 reveals her words, which were full of prophetic insight. She spoke not only of avoiding the pitfalls of lust but also of the importance of wise choices in relationships.

    Sexual sin shipwreck destiny. Life is a short journey from time to eternity. it’s only one life we have and to have that one life ruined by immorality is too costly. Lemuel’s mother warned him (while pulling his ears I believe) to steer clear of those who have ruin kings. It was a prophetic revelation – an instruction inspired by a prophetic understanding of what lay ahead of him.

    She warned him against drunkenness and docility, encouraging him to spend his energy pursuing the benefits of others thus leaving less time for idle mind to wander into lust. she proceeded to describe the kind of wife he needed – a virtuous woman, a faithful marriage partner that would make it unnecessary for him to seek satisfaction outside. What a mother!

    While our sons may not face direct solicitation from prostitutes on the street, they are still vulnerable to the dangers of the internet, where harmful images and individuals can tempt them. Without the guidance, warnings, and prayers of their godly mothers to protect them, they may be drawn into responding to the sexual advances of corrupt individuals online. Even if they don’t engage, they could be tempted to normalize or dismiss such behaviors, potentially affirming what God calls an abomination (Romans 1:32).

    Maybe the casualty rate of today would not be so high these days if mothers once more take their place to protect the future of the kings God has given them to raise for this generation.

    Could the epidemic of sexual sin ravaging this generation be directly connected to a failure of parental discipline which was not instituted when the heart was yet malleable? As some one has asserted, It is impossible to straighten an oak the crook that grew in the sapling. Apart from avoiding this plague ourselves. May God safeguard the awesome potentials of our children, delivering them from the royal pathway to destruction.

    Many years later, the King actually remembered and was rephrasing his mothers lessons on this passage. They were so inscribed on his heart, too etched into his character that he never forgot them.

    This is the time we have to instill this message in the heart of our sons,

  • Trauma – when the memory still hurts (Part 1)

    Trauma – when the memory still hurts (Part 1)

    Like the sun struggling to pierce through the heavy, dark clouds on a stormy day, so did Emem wrestled against the lingering trauma that refused to let her go.

    As the memory lingers and still hurts, she finds herself trapped in the echoes of the past.

    Memories of him—Papa Emeka, as he is fondly called in the crowded face-me-I-face-you compound they all lived in.

    He was in his early thirties, short and dark-skinned, with a face etched by wrinkles from years of labor under the unforgiving sun. His wrapper was his signature look, tied casually around his waist as he went about his daily hustle for survival. But beneath that seemingly ordinary man lay a predator, a man who shattered Emem’s innocence and left her with lasting scars.

    Even now, over two decades later, the pain feels as raw as the day it began. The trauma of what she endured lingers, slicing through her mind like a jagged blade. Every time her thoughts drift to Papa Emeka, it’s as if her body remembers, like a tongue involuntarily recalling the sting of a past injury.

    Tears spill freely. She tries to stop them, but they flow like rivers, uncontrollable and endless. She remembers how he made her his object of pleasure, his prey.

    Trauma comes in many forms—physical, emotional, mental—and Emem’s story is a harrowing example of how memories can hurt long after the events themselves. The different types of trauma may vary, but their power to linger, haunt, and shape lives is global.

    For Emem, the memories of how he made her his object of pleasure are the heaviest burden of all.

    She was only seven. Just seven.

    She can still see it clearly, as if it happened yesterday—the cushion she lay on, the glint of him rub Vaseline on his cock for easy penetration, his instructions for her to stay quiet.

    It was always the same. Every time she and the other children wandered innocently into his parlor to watch tv, he would send the rest of the children outside and keep her behind. Alone. Trapped.

    Even at that young age, Emem couldn’t understand why a grown man with four children would find a seven-year-old appealing.

    The horror of that experience became a Threshold an opening for more predators to come in.

    It’s been more than twenty years, but the experience were as crystal clear as glass. They fester like open sores, refusing to close.

    Even though it affected virtually everything about her life…

    Trauma has a way of doing that, It’s a demon that ensures it’s victim is held captive in the prison of pain forever. It whispers lies that tell you you’re broken and you’ll never be whole, you’ll never be free.

    How do you survive that surge of emotions that drives you back to a memory that has refused to fade?

    Sometimes, you’d think you’ve forgiven, forgotten, and moved on until the devil sets on that alarm that triggers the mental confusion, and fuss with yourself.

    For years, Emem lived in the shadow of her pain, unsure of how to escape.

    Whenever the memories overwhelmed her, she would get drunk. She would seek solace in fleeting connections, offering her body to numb the ache in her soul. But each time, she would wake up feeling emptier, lonelier, and more lost. The cycle of self-destruction continued, feeding the lie that she was beyond redemption.

    Trauma is brutal. It seeps into every corner of your life, affecting how you see yourself and the world. It convinces you that healing is impossible, and that freedom is out of reach. But that’s a lie.

    What is trauma

    The truth is, while trauma may shape you, it doesn’t have to define you. Healing is possible, but it takes courage, intentionality, and the willingness to face the darkness head-on.

    Marriam Webster defines trauma as an emotional upset. It says trauma is a disordered psychic or behavioral state resulting from severe mental or emotional stress or physical injury

    A good example is Tamar.

    2 Samuel 13:19-20

    [19]Then Tamar put ashes on her head, and tore her robe of many colors that was on her, and laid her hand on her head and went away crying bitterly.

    [20]And Absalom her brother said to her, “Has Amnon your brother been with you? But now hold your peace, my sister. He is your brother; do not take this thing to heart.” So Tamar remained desolate in her brother Absalom’s house.

    It was never heard that she lived again. Bursting with life, got married, had children or did anything again.

    It was recorded, that she remained in her brothers house, DESOLATE.

    Her voice was shut, forever!

    How traumatic that experience must have been for her.

    It shows that, anyone can be a victim.

    The high and mighty, monarchs, children born with a silver spoon, and even those born with the wooden spoon.

    Trauma has no respect for age, status or your believe in God.

    But it takes intentionality to overcome this demon that buries the head of if the mighty.

    Let me share an experience…

    I was in an accident four years ago, and I was left with a series of injuries all over my body. One of such was the one that paralyzed half of my face because my skull was fractured from the impact of that accident.

    The doctors said I’d need a surgery, an correctional surgery to restore my appearance. My eyebrow was divided in two, you could clearly see that the bone on that part of my face shifted.

    And a swollen part beside my left eye refused to go down even after spending about a hundred thousand naira for that particular spot.

    Eventually, I realized it was no longer necessary to keep spending money for what’s going to heal.

    However, it did heal. But the scar remained, the swollen part took a permanent spot on my face, refusing to disappear. But I accepted this new reality on face.

    As long as it doesn’t cause me pain or discomfort, I was willing to live with it.

    But this wasn’t the narrative few days after the accident because was in an excruciating pain that I would give anything to feel better. My legs hurt, my face hurt, and I could hardly breathe due to internal injury.

    I thought death was near. But I just wasn’t prepared to leave the world yet, so I fought everyday because I want to live again.

    I declare God’s word constantly. I reminded my body that it’s not permitted to give up. I told my body that the spirit governs it, and that spirit has a lot to accomplish here.

    I proclaimed that I’m a life giving spirit, and the life of God abounds!

    I did this everyday. Almost every hour, talking to myself like a madwoman.

    The pain reminded me that I was in a terrible position. But whenever I take an analgesic, I’d feel better and forget about what I’m going through at the moment.

    Whenever I’m on the road, I relive the accident. For months, I was so scared of traveling. I was always afraid, even on motorcycles. Until I began to challenge that feeling, I confronted the emotions until I broke free from it.

    This is what trauma does. It’s even worse than an actual injury. The pain of Injuries fade as time heals the wound. But that of trauma? It hardly ever goes away without supernatural help and intervention. Especially for traumas that cut really deep into our core. It reignites emotions worse than pain itself.

    Anger, resentment, fury, and a low self esteem.

    Many women wallow in such experience. For some, they’ve been suffering from this trauma for over twenty years. For others, it totally changes everything about them. Their perception, belief system, values and even their core.

    For Emem, Papa Emeka died of HIV few years later. How she escaped from being infected by the deadly virus is what she never understood.

    Even though the impact of that experience changed her life, it became like an open door for other abusers like Papa Emeka.

    Almost all her life, she couldn’t speak up when she was abused. Her cousin, her aunt’s son, a neighbor, and several others.

    What Papa Emeka did was create an open door for other men who would come take a piece of her and leave wounds.

    She lived her life carelessly in her twenties. Thought money could afford her body, so she willingly gave it out whenever anyone offers her money.

    Until she met a Man, and he changed her life forever.

    Emem’s story isn’t over, and neither is yours. No matter how deep the wounds, no matter how heavy the pain.

    You are more than your trauma. You are more than your pain. And you have the strength to rise again.

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  • Favor: Four Daily Habits to Attract His Blessings in Your Life

    Favor: Four Daily Habits to Attract His Blessings in Your Life

    ”One day of Favor is better than a lifetime of Labor”.
    – Mike Murdoch

    When it comes to the dynamics of God’s Kingdom, favor is everything. Think about your life for a moment—how often have you seen that the fastest runner doesn’t always win the race, the strongest warrior doesn’t always triumph in battle, the wisest people still experience lack, and the most skilled don’t always rise to fame? This is because success in life is not merely a product of human effort; it is often a result of divine favor.

    Favor is the game-changer. It’s what aligns your life with victories you couldn’t achieve on your own. Some call it favor, others refer to it as mercy, lovingkindness, or unfailing love. Even the blessings of a good spouse are described in Scripture as favor.

    To me, favor is when you receive what you’re not qualified to get, when you are seated in places where your own merit could never take you.

    Consider Joseph, who found favor in the sight of Pharaoh, the king of Egypt. His journey defies human logic—he went from the pit and the prison to the pinnacle of power. The very man who was once a slave had his former master bow the knee as he rode by in royal authority. Only divine favor can orchestrate such a dramatic turn of events!

    Then there’s Esther, whose story is a testament to the power of favor. She entered the presence of King Ahasuerus, an act that could have cost her life. But instead of death, she found favor—not just for herself but for her entire nation. What was typically forbidden was granted to her, and her courage became the bridge for a nation’s salvation.

    Daniel’s life in a foreign land is yet another testament to favor. He didn’t just win the favor of King Nebuchadnezzar but also found favor with the kings who followed. His influence extended across empires, proving that divine favor knows no boundaries.

    The stories of Joseph, Esther, Daniel, and countless others show us one undeniable truth: favor defines lives and transforms destinies. It is the unseen hand of God opening doors that human effort alone could never unlock.

    So, how can we position ourselves for such favor? While favor is ultimately God’s gift, there are habits we can cultivate to align ourselves with His grace. Here are four habits that I have observed to be pathways to accessing God’s favor:

    Grace to the Humble

    There’s something about a humble attitude, it attract unmerited favor from both God and man. Throughout the new testament, we see a consistent pattern: God pours out His grace on the humble but stands firmly against the proud and arrogant.

    One story I read vividly illustrates this truth:
    A taxi driver in an old, battered car had the misfortune of crashing into a gleaming, luxury Honda owned by a wealthy man. The accident was undoubtedly his fault. As he stepped out of his worn-down vehicle, panic set in.

    A quick glance at the damage revealed what he already knew: even if he sold his car, his only means of livelihood, it wouldn’t cover the cost of repairs. Financially struggling as he was, the situation seemed utterly hopeless.

    Desperate for mercy, the taxi driver did the unthinkable. He ran to the front of the pristine Honda, laid himself flat on the ground, and cried out, “Please, sir, drive over me. I’m sorry for what I’ve done. Even if I sold myself, my family, and this car, it wouldn’t be enough to pay for the damage. Just drive over me, sir. Please, I beg you!”

    The wealthy car owner was stunned. At first, anger consumed him, but the sight of the man sprawled out on the ground, pleading for mercy shifted something in his heart. His fury gave way to amazement, and soon, laughter bubbled up. The scene was so unexpected that it was almost comical.

    Still, the taxi driver didn’t move. He remained flat on the ground, humbling himself completely. The rich man, now moved with compassion, walked over and told him to get up. “Go,” he simply said.

    The taxi driver, trembling and in disbelief, stood up. That was it? He was free to go? Overwhelmed with gratitude, he profusely thanked the man, got into his dented car, and drove home.

    What changed the outcome of this encounter? It wasn’t the taxi driver’s arguments or resources, he had none to offer. It was his humility that softened the heart of the wealthy man. If the taxi driver had responded with anger, excuses, or defensiveness, the story might have ended very differently.

    This story is a reminder of Proverbs 3:34: “God resists the proud, but gives grace to the humble.” Similarly, 1 Peter 5:5-6 exhorts us to clothe ourselves with humility, for “God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.”

    Humility will position us to receive grace not just from God, but often from others as well. It’s in the moments when we come broken, vulnerable, and sincere that God’s love and favor reach out to us.

    Always approach the throne of God with a humble heart. When we acknowledge our need for His mercy and grace, His favor rests upon us in ways we could never achieve on our own. And when His favor lifts you to new heights, never forget to acknowledge the grace that made it possible.

    Humility opens the door to divine favor, and favor changes everything. Where pride would create barriers, humility invites breakthroughs. So, live under the abiding cloud of His grace, and let it position you for a life of unimaginable blessings.

    Divine pleasure

    It’s truly amazing what happens when God is pleased with a person. He doesn’t just bless them, He actively undertakes for them, ensuring their success. As Proverbs 16:7 declares, “When a man’s ways please the Lord, He makes even his enemies to be at peace with him.”

    This verse reminds us that living a life that pleases God invites His divine favor. Every action we take to honor Him, standing firm in faith, rejecting unbelief, walking in righteousness, obeying His Word and Spirit, forgiving others, serving selflessly, and walking in love—draws us closer to His heart and His blessings.

    But you cannot anger the Blesser and still expect to receive a blessing. Scripture is clear that rebellion leads to a dry and desolate life. “The rebellious dwell in a dry land” (Psalm 68:6). For those who choose disobedience, famine and distress follow them.

    If you desire to live under the shield of God’s favor, let go of anything in your life that grieves Him. Stubborn disobedience and a hardened heart will only drive away the Spirit of favor. Instead, align your heart with His will, for as Psalm 5:12 promises: “For You, Lord, will bless the righteous; with favor You will surround him as with a shield.”

    Choose today to walk in ways that please God. When His favor rests upon you, it will be like a shield, protecting and guiding you through life’s challenges, and opening doors of peace and blessings you could never achieve on your own.

    Pursuit of Devine agenda

    Favor follows divine purpose, it’s as simple as that. God has not promised to prosper your personal agenda, but when you step into the flow of His plan, He will carry you along, providing everything you need to fulfill His purpose.

    The key is to align yourself with what God is already doing. Discover His direction and follow it wholeheartedly. When God sees your unwavering commitment to His priorities, He knows He can trust you with His resources — truth, anointing, finances, wisdom, and more. Then you will become a steward, a Kingdom treasurer, entrusted with the manifold gifts of Heaven to advance His mission on earth.

    This is the secret to becoming a channel of favor that never runs dry. God’s blessings flow to those who are impacting His people, doing His purpose, and advancing His Kingdom.

    So, what is God doing on earth today?

    His agenda has not changed. Jesus came to seek and save the lost and to establish those who are saved within His body through deliberate discipleship and training in the ways of God. Everything we do should positively contribute to these two grand objectives:

    1. Reaching the lost
    2. Equipping the saved through discipleship

    When you align your life with these purposes, you position yourself in the river of divine favor. Let your work, resources, and influence reflect a commitment to the Great Commission. As you do, you’ll not only fulfill your divine calling but also experience the overflowing favor of God in every area of your life.

    Diligence

    Favor tends to follow the diligent, it’s simply how it works. Those who strive, seek, and persist often find more opportunities than those who sit idle. Scripture makes it clear: “God is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him” (Hebrews 11:6).

    The Bible gives us a powerful example through the ant. “You lazy fool, look at the ant. Watch closely; let it teach you a thing or two. Nobody has to tell it what to do. All summer it stores up food; at harvest, it stockpiles provisions.” (Proverbs 6:6–8, MSG).

    This paints a vivid picture of discipline and preparation. So, how long will you continue to laze around, doing nothing? A nap here, a day off there, and before you know it, life’s opportunities will pass you by. Laziness leads to lack, but diligence positions you for favor and provision.

    Every gift and talent God has entrusted to you is a seed of favor. To fully experience the harvest of His blessings, you must:

    1. Discover your God-given gifts.
    2. Develop them with diligence.
    3. Deploy them with excellence.

    Proverbs 22:29 reminds us: “Do you see a man diligent and skillful in his work? He will stand before kings; he will not stand before obscure men.” Skilled workers, those who are dedicated and excellent in their craft, are always in demand. They are admired, respected, and entrusted with greater opportunities.

    It’s time for you to rise and take your place before kings, to operate at higher levels of life and influence. The favor of God rests on those who diligently pursue Him and commit to excelling in their work.

    Let today be the day you shift from procrastination to purposeful action. As you pour yourself into your God-given assignments, the favor of God will empower you, opening doors you never imagined possible. Pursue Him, hone your skills, and watch as He elevates you to places of honor.

    Favor is not just a concept; it is a divine force that can redefine your life. Allow it work for you!

    Shalom!

  • 5 Life-changing Scripture to Transform Your Life

    5 Life-changing Scripture to Transform Your Life

    One of the first books I encountered in my teenage years that had a profound and lasting impact on my life was The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren.

    That book wasn’t just a casual read, it was transformative. I read it five times in a single year, and with each reading, I discovered something new and life-changing. It sank so deeply with me that I couldn’t keep the experience to myself. I started sharing my story of how the book influenced me, and I even went as far as gifting copies to others. It wasn’t just a book—it was a tool that ignited a ripple effect of change in my life. To this day, I haven’t stopped talking about it.

    This taught me something powerful, that when something shifts your perspective and creates positive change in your life, it’s worth sharing. Think about it, when you see people passionately sharing their encounters, it’s because it deeply impacted them. I can completely relate to that. When something alters the course of your life for the better, it feels almost impossible to keep it to yourself.

    That’s exactly how I feel about the scriptures I’m about to share. When I encountered these passages, they didn’t just encourage me, they transformed my faith and gave me a fresh sense of meaning. They became a source of strength and guidance, particularly in challenging times. These scriptures pivoted my spiritual journey, grounding me in God’s promises and redirecting my focus to what truly matters.

    I believe every Christian needs these scriptures, especially in times like these when the world feels so uncertain and overwhelming. They are a beacon of hope, a reminder of God’s faithfulness, and a call to live with intention. If they could impact my life in such a powerful way, I’m confident they’ll do the same for you.

    Psalm 1:1-6

    1 Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers,


    2 but whose delight is in the law of the Lord, and who meditates on his law day and night.
    3 That person is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither whatever they do prospers.


    4 Not so the wicked! They are like chaff that the wind blows away.
    5 Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment, nor sinners in the assembly of the righteous.


    6 For the Lord watches over the way of the righteous, but the way of the wicked leads to destruction.     Psalms 91:1-6.

    This passage has been a guiding light in my life, helping me stay grounded and to walk with stability. It’s an important reminder that choosing the path of righteousness is not just the right thing to do but it’s the path that leads to peace, certainty, and fulfillment.

    Now, imagine living as a piece of chaff, something weightless and insignificant, tossed around by the wind without direction or control. Wherever the wind blows, that’s where you end up. You have no say. You can’t think clearly, and there’s no guarantee in anything you do. That’s a life devoid of peace and joy, a life that leaves you feeling empty and defeated. What kind of existence is that?

    But when you choose to dwell in righteousness and are happy with the Word of God, everything changes. There’s a sense of calm and peace that settles deep in your soul giving you a firm foundation to stand on when everything else feels unstable. And when you do the right thing especially when it’s hard, there’s a joy that fills your heart. It’s not fleeting or shallow, but a deep, abiding joy that comes from knowing you’re on the right path.

    This passage captures exactly this, that the promise of stability, peace, and joy are for those who stay rooted in God’s Word. It’s a reminder that righteousness isn’t just a moral choice; it’s the key to living a life of fulfillment, and unwavering peace.

    Proverbs 9:7-9

    7 “Whoever corrects a mocker invites insults; whoever rebukes the wicked incurs abuse.
    8 Do not rebuke mockers, or they will hate you; rebuke the wise, and they will love you.
    9 Instruct the wise, and they will be wiser still; teach the righteous, and they will add to their learning.

    There’s something truly special about wisdom and to be honest, life is sweet when you walk in wisdom, everything becomes clearer. Jesus Himself taught us this balance when He said, “Be gentle as a dove and wise as a serpent.” It’s a reminder that wisdom isn’t just desirable, it’s essential. In fact, the Bible emphasizes that wisdom is the principal thing. To develop a growth mindset and navigate life successfully, you need wisdom.

    One of my favorite books in the Bible is Proverbs. It’s a treasure trove of insights, filled with practical advice for living a meaningful, godly life. If you haven’t read it yet, I highly recommend diving in—it’s packed with wisdom that transforms the way you think and act.

    However, not everyone appreciates wisdom or correction. There are people who, when confronted or advised, immediately put up walls. They shut down, refusing to listen, and often react defensively. This is why discernment is crucial when offering guidance. Some people are receptive and open to growth; these are the ones who will embrace instruction and use it to become even wiser. Others, however, reject correction outright, and engaging with them can lead to frustration or hostility.

    This passage beautifully illustrates this principle. It teaches us to focus on those who value wisdom and are willing to learn because they’ll use it to improve themselves. At the same time, it warns against wasting energy on those unwilling to listen, as they’ll only respond negatively. So, Which category do you find yourself in?

    Seek wisdom, share it where it’s welcomed, and surround yourself with those who are wise.

    2 Peter 1:5-9

    5 For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge;
    6 and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness;
    7 and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love.
    8 For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.
    9 But whoever does not have them is nearsighted and blind, forgetting that they have been cleansed from their past sins.

    This passage highlights the vital need to build upon our faith with virtues—goodness, knowledge, self-control, perseverance, godliness, mutual affection, and love. These qualities are the foundation for a fruitful and impactful Christian life. Without them, we risk spiritual blindness, losing sight of the grace we’ve received through Christ’s sacrifice. But when we actively cultivate and grow these attributes, we’re not only reminded of the transformation we’ve experienced, but we also position ourselves to live a life that pleases God.

    Think about it: when others encounter you, what do they notice first? Are they drawn to the self-control, knowledge, and love you embody? It’s impossible to have “too much” of these qualities. The more we grow in them, the more our lives reflect Christ’s nature. This realization motivates me to keep striving toward growth in these areas, knowing that as I become more like Him, I can have a lasting impact on those around me.

    Colossians 6:7-8

    6 So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him,
    7 rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.
    8 See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the elemental spiritual forces of this world rather than on Christ.

    In these verses, Paul encourage us to stay strong in our faith and remain rooted in the teachings of Christ. Just as we’ve accepted Christ as our Lord, we should continue to live in Him, growing stronger in our faith. Paul also warn us to be careful not to be misled by false ideas or worldly philosophies that are based on human traditions rather than on Christ’s truth. These ideas can lead us off course, so we must stay true to what we’ve been taught and live with thankful hearts.

    This message is especially important today. We are surrounded by all sorts of philosophies, like liberalism, which promotes doing anything you want. Some even believe you can change your gender just because you feel like it. These ideas can seem appealing, but they are far from the truth found in Christ.

    Mathew 5: 13-16

    13 “You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot.
    14 You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden.
    15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead, they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.
    16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.”

    In this passage, Jesus reminds us of our important role in the world. He calls us the “salt of the earth” and “the light of the world,” showing that we are meant to bring goodness, preserve what’s right, and guide others. Salt that loses its flavor is useless, just like a light hidden under a bowl. Christians are meant to let their light shine through good deeds so that others can see God’s goodness and praise Him.

    Every time I read this, I imagine Jesus telling me, ” Patience you are the light of the world.” This is a reminder to shine in everything I do and I see each thing I do as an act of service to others. This is the legacy I want to leave behind.

    In conclusion, the scriptures we’ve explored remind us of the foundational truths that should guide our Christian walk. From the wisdom and virtues we are called to cultivate to the reminder that we are the salt and light in the world. We are called to live out our faith in a way that reflects Christ’s love and truth.

    For the creation waits in eager expectation for the children of God to be revealed.” (Romans 8:19, NIV)

    May these scriptures continue to inspire and transform you, helping you to walk faithfully, serve humbly, and shine brightly for the glory of God.

  • Three Important assets to protect this year

    Three Important assets to protect this year

    Do you know that you have three key important assets you must protect at all costs?

    Every January for the past three years, I’ve started a tradition that has shaped the way I navigate my life. I sit down with a pen, some quiet time, and a blank sheet of paper, and I create a list of things that matters to me in whatever order it comes. Sometimes it’s a short list and other times the list goes go on for pages.

    But every time I complete this exercise, one thought unavoidably surfaces: To truly prioritize what’s important, boundaries must be set.

    Life is unpredictable. It has its seasons of chaos and calm, its periods of busyness and stillness. In the whirlwind of so much, losing track of things that are important can be very, very easy. That’s why having a system—a way to identify, protect, and prioritize what’s important isn’t just helpful; it’s essential.

    When life throws its curveballs at you, knowing what holds the highest value to you becomes your anchor. That’s why I encourage everyone to carve out a moment of clarity. Sit down in a quiet space, reflect on the things that matter most, and create your list. Because once you identify your priorities, you can actively protect them.

    Of course, there are treasures we hold dear to our hearts, like our relationship with God, the love of our family, the preservation of our peace of mind, and our reputation. But beyond these, there are three vital assets that we should all strive to safeguard.

    Let’s delve into what these three important assets are and explore how setting intentional boundaries can help us protect them.

    Your mind

    Have you ever noticed how easy it is to spiral into negative, overwhelming thoughts? One moment, everything feels fine, and the next, a single thought snowballs into a mountain of fear and dread. Before you know it, any effort to guard your mind feels like a distant memory.

    Sometimes, it’s not just the negative thoughts but also the lack of intentional focus that trips us up. You might spend hours reading a book, only to realize later that you didn’t truly absorb or reflect on its message. The noise of life can drown out what’s important if we’re not careful.
    That’s why guarding your mind is important. Proverbs 4:23 says “Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” This scripture reminds us that our inner world—our thoughts, beliefs, and focus shapes every action we take and decision we make.

    Not everything you encounter is meant for your consumption. The constant influx of information, and opinions can either build you up or break you down. This is where discernment comes in. Filter what you allow into your mind. Not every piece of news, social media post, or conversation is meant to fuel your growth. Some things are designed to inspire you, while others may derail you.

    Be vigilant. If something threatens to mar your progress don’t hesitate, flee from it. Protecting your mind is not just about avoiding negativity; it’s about actively choosing what nourishes your spirit and aligns with your purpose.

    As you move forward, ask yourself: Is this thought, book, or conversation helping me grow? Is it inspiring me to live with intention? When you make guarding your mind a priority, you create a space where clarity, peace, and purpose can thrive.

    Remember, everything you do flows from what’s inside. Protect it and watch how your life transforms.

    Your time

    Especially when you have a lot of responsibilities on you, it’s easy to lose track of time and let the demands of life pull you in a million directions. But here’s the thing: if you want to live a life that aligns with your dreams, you have to be intentional about how you spend your time.

    Think about it: the most successful people in the world don’t have extra hours in their day. They have the same 24 hours that you and I do. The difference is, they’ve mastered the art of protecting their time and focusing on what truly matters.

    Now we are in 2025, I challenge you to do the same. Protect your time fiercely. Ask yourself: Are the things you’re spending your time on moving you closer to your goals? Or are they distractions that keep you stuck?

    For me, I’ve realized that my dreams are too big to leave to chance. This year, I’m committed to being deliberate about every moment I spend. It’s not just about cutting out the noise; it’s about making space for the things that truly matter, things that bring me closer to my purpose.

    You have the power to make 2025 a transformative year. Start by setting boundaries, saying no to distractions, and prioritizing what aligns with your vision. Your time is your most valuable resource—guard it, cherish it, and watch as you move closer to the life you’ve always dreamed of.

    Because if others can achieve greatness with the same 24 hours, why should yours be any different?

    Your visions ( goals & dreams)

    We hear it all the time: write down your visions and goals. It’s repeated so often that it sometimes feels like background noise, doesn’t it? But how often do we truly take this advice to heart? And when we do, how intentional are we about protecting the vision we’ve put down on paper?

    I’ll admit, I’ve struggled with this too. Each year, I choose a theme word that reflects my bigger picture, a word that anchors my goals and guides my decisions. One year, my word was “begin,” and it marked the start of my blogging journey. But here’s the thing: starting a blog wasn’t the ultimate goal; it was just one step toward.

    Somewhere along the way, I got distracted. I became consumed by numbers, dreaming of a blog with a million views and craving instant success. The excitement that once fueled me faded into frustration, and I found myself completely off course.

    It wasn’t until I returned to my journal, where I had written my vision, things shifted. Reading my own words brought a wave of clarity and renewed energy. It reminded me of why I started and helped me reconnect with the bigger picture.

    This experience reinforced a timeless truth: writing down your vision is powerful. It’s more than just a task, it’s a principle rooted in wisdom. As Habakkuk 2:2 says, “Write the vision, and make it plain on tablets, that he who reads it may run.”

    When your vision is clear and written down, it becomes a roadmap—not just for you, but for others who may join you on the journey. It gives direction, focus, and purpose. And when the inevitable challenges arise, revisiting your vision offers the strength to press on.

    So, if you’ve been feeling lost or stuck, go back to your vision. Dust off that journal, reread those words, and let them reignite the fire within you. Trust me, it’s not just about writing it down—it’s about living it out, one intentional step at a time.

    What steps will you take today to protect that powerful asset you have and focus on what truly matters? Share your thoughts.

    Conclusions
    Ask the LORD to bless your plans, and you will be successful in carrying them out. Proverbs 16:3.

    What step will you take today to protect the three important assets God has given you with the person you aspire to become?

  • What I did to overcome my insecurities

    What I did to overcome my insecurities

    Carrying the weight of insecurities can be overwhelming, But through intentional steps and leaning on God’s guidance, I found a way to overcome them.

    In this post, I’ll share what worked for me and how you can begin your own journey to confidence and freedom.

    Pray about it

    Starr with a transformative prayer. Ask God to renew your mind and align your thoughts with His truth. Invite Him to replace fear and doubt with faith and confidence. Surrender your worries and insecurities to Him, trusting in His power to bring change. Pray for strength to let go of old patterns and for wisdom to see yourself as He sees you—loved, capable, and chosen.

    This kind of prayer not only invites God’s intervention but also helps you refocus on His promises and find peace in His guidance.

    Control your attention

    When you consistently focus your attention on a specific virtue or idea, it begins to shape your thoughts, attitudes, and actions. This is because what we dwell on in our minds has a powerful influence on who we are and how we behave.

    For example, if you intentionally focus on kindness, you’ll start noticing opportunities to be kind in your daily life, and over time, it will become second nature. Similarly, meditating on qualities like gratitude, patience, or courage can gradually mold these traits into your character.

    The Bible reinforces this principle in Philippians 4:8, encouraging us to focus on what is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, and admirable. By paying attention to these virtues, they begin to take root in our hearts, leading to a transformation in how we live.

    In essence, what you focus on grows, and by giving your attention to positive and godly virtues, you allow them to become an integral part of who you are.

    Challenge those negative thoughts

    After praying and filling your mind with godly virtues, a spiritual and mental battle often begins. Your old self—the part shaped by past fears, doubts, and worldly influences—will resist the transformation taking place. Negative thoughts, self-doubt, and feelings of inadequacy may surface as your mind starts adjusting to this new, godly way of thinking.

    This is where you must actively challenge those negative thoughts. Recognize that these thoughts are not from God but are remnants of old patterns or even attacks meant to discourage you. Combat them with truth by declaring God’s Word over your life. For example, if a thought tells you, “You’re not good enough,” remind yourself of Philippians 4:13: “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”

    Spend time with supportive and uplifting people.

    Hebrews 10:24-25: “And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.”

    This passage emphasizes the importance of community and mutual encouragement among believers. It calls us to inspire one another to live in love, actively do good, and remain committed to gathering together to strengthen our faith, especially as the return of Christ draws near.

    Read Christian books and watch YouTube videos about your identity in Christ and building confidence.

    Reading Christian books and watching YouTube videos on these topics can be a step in your spiritual and personal growth. These resources will provide you with insights and encouragement grounded in God’s Word, helping you better understand who you are in Christ and how to walk in the confidence that comes from Him.

    Conclusions

    Recovery may not be an easy journey, but God has given us a Helper. The Spirit of Truth is with you and will remain with you, guiding you every step of the way. He will teach you all things and remind you of God’s promises and truths. Trust in His presence and lean on His guidance.

    Until next time, stay encouraged, and God bless!

    Click here to know about insecurities I struggled with.